Saturday, February 20, 2010

Remembering The Day Our Angel Was Born

Remembering The Day Our Angel Was Born

Remembering The Day Our Angel Was Born

Remembering The Day Our Angel Was Born

Remembering The Day Our Angel Was Born

Happy Birthday to our Little Angel Peanut Girl

Andie Grace,
Your mommy, daddy, brothers, sisters, grandparents, anuts, uncles and all our other family and friends miss and love ou sooo much. I'm sure as your mommy that you are by our sides at all times and I'm sure as your mommy that you are having a wonderful birthday in Heaven with all your Angel friends and family that are with you. Please baby girl know and feel how much we love and care about you. Im sure you hear me talk to you and see me kiss your picture good night every night. Im sure you know how I wonder who you would look like, if you would be walking and talking and always wanting candy from your Daddy. God we miss you more than words can say. I hope you had a wonderful day. I hope you also felt and saw all the wonderful people around here that were laughing, crying, celebrating, and just wishing you were here. Baby girl we love and miss you so much and hope you had a wonderful First Birthday. I know someday we will celebrate life together. I know we will!!!! We love you with our all Angel.

Love ,
Mommy , Daddy and Family

Happy Birthday to our Little Angel Peanut Girl

Sorry to you Andie and you all that I kept waiting for a post yesterday. I know I'm a day late to wish our litte angel peanut girl a Happy Birthday on her blog, but it was rough yesterday. The water works were flowing when I was alone or thinking, so I didn't have the courage to sit and write. I guess I was afraid too. I heard a song and cried, wrote a few sentences on facebook and cried, I talked to people and cried, I even got my hair done in the am and was bawling while sitting there letting my color process and getting beautiful phone calls and texts from people. I think the other ladies in there must have wondered what the heck is wrong with this lady? Baby Ethan's birthday was the day before Andie's, and I asked his mom what I should do to get through. She said stay busy. She was right, when I was busy I did better. On that note, my wonderful friends and family had a wonderful lunch in Andie's honor. It was so beautiful and definitley kept me busy. I really do have the best friends and family in the whole wide world. They gave me some beanie babies, flowers, stuffed animals, a gift card,a stepping stone, and a beautiful bracelet.The best gift of all was them being there with me and feeling their love for Andie, me and our family. I really wanted last night to be me and Duane alone spending time and talking about our Angel, but it didn't work out. I think we are going to do something today. Last night after the kids were all tucked in we did sit and talk about what we were doing a year ago at that time. It was around 8:30 pm, and Andie was born at 7:02pm. We were talking about our delivery day and how we were still in our delivery room and running tests on her blood sugar, etc. All the things that should have been RED flags and just remembering the moment. I was talking to Duane about how Andie slept on my chest all swaddled up for the first two nights and how much I loved that. I want to watch Andie's birth video again. I can't believe how much I hurt and ache. I know I hurt and ache daily, but it is really coming out lately. Thanks to my dear sweet husband for being sooo supportive. We couldn't get through it without each other. Duane, I want you to know that giving me Andie is the best gift you have ever given me and I thank you. I know I make you crazy sometimes (by always talking) but its not on purpose. Its just me and who I am.To me it shows how much I care, love, want to be loved, and want to be with you. I do love you very much and know we will get through whatever life brings us. If we can and are making it through this horrible tragedy in our lives, then we should be able to get through anything. The rest should seem simple compared to losing Our Angel. I love you and thank you. Thanks again to all of you for so much love and support. We love you all.
Brooke and Duane

I love this poem

To Mommy

I'm just a little baby girl
who didn't quite make it there.
I had to go be with Jesus,
but I'm waiting for you there.

Don't fret about me Mommy
I'm of God's lambs most blest.
I'd had loved to stay there with you,
but the Shepard knows what's best.

Many dwell here where I live
Waited years to enter in.
Struggled through a world of sorrow,
and their lives were marred with sin.

So sweet Mommy don't you cry
wipe those tears and chase the gloom,
I got three weeks to stay there with you,
instead of coming here straight from your womb.

Thank you for the life you gave me
I'd have loved to brought it fame.
But if I'd linger in Earths shadows,
might instead have brought it shame.

Daddy gave me something for you,
It's our secret Mommy dear.
He pressed it tight against my forehead,
and whispered in my tiny ear.

I'll be waitiing for you Mommy,
Daddy and big brothers and sisters too,
I'll be waiting for you to hold me,
then Daddy's kiss I'll give to you.


Monday, February 1, 2010

Andie's Birthday

I know I have not posted in a loooong time. Its been rough. Yes, Andie's birthday is coming up on the 19th of this month. Anyway, Andie's walk has been postponed. We had a few glitches. I will update with the new date. One thing I would like to do, is keep Andie's Legacy going with the Beanie Babies. With Andie's birthday right around the corner, I would love to go to the hospital with a ton of Benaie Babies in honor of our Angel. So anyone who would like to donate them please feel free to do so. We have donated over a thousand in this past year. Thanks to all of you. It is so awesome for me to follow other Heart Mom's blogs or on our facebook accounts, and see Andie's beanies in the pictures with the babies. I feel that they have Andie's Angel with them at all times. Thanks so much for all your help and spreading the word.


Andie's Angel Legacy
26910 N. 54th Ave
Phoenix, Az 85083