Sunday, July 17, 2011

Dirty Ghetto Kids(DGK) signing and demo

On Friday July 15, 2011. Happy Birthday Pa Pa Bill! We went to the DGK signing and demo. Sienna & I waited in line for over two hours to get these signatures fo my baby boys. Boston was practicing skate boarding and having a blast with his friends and some of the pros that were out there at the skate park. Four hours later I was exhausted and we got all the signatures. Again, the picture of Boston sitting next to the guy is Chris Cole. ( Mommys Favorite) It was fun. It was awesome to see all the kids so excited and having a good time.

Thanks COWTOWN and DGK you guys are awesome!

Bostons 8th B DAY (Street League 2011)

We had a small gathering with Morgans family and some friends on Bostons actual birthday.Then we went to Street League for Bostons birthday this year. This is the first year in the last three years that we have been in AZ for Bostons birthday. It was very cool, and yes mommy loved Chris Cole. Oh yes, and by the way we were on TV on Sunday for the finals on ESPN.

Of course we had to do the skateboard park in TN 2011

Trip to Tennessee Summer 2011T

This summer the boys and I decided to go se my family in Tennessee. The funny part about it is my my said I will pay for if, can you guys leave right away? So two days later me the boys, and the two dogs drove 2000 miles across country by ourselves. It was fun and boring at the same time. We stopped at many rest stops and cracker barrels as we could. We even saw a huge butterfly and my boys said mom look its Andie. SO we have our Angel in the vacation pics too. It was so nice to get the kids together. We went to our first MOOFEST!!!!! HEEEE HAAA When we were at the MooFest, my nephew Chance had a yellow ballon and said it was Andie. So he let it go, and it was the sweetest thing. We went and hike Fort Louden, and then the kids jumped in the river. We all had a blast.

So Much To Say!!!!!!

It has been so long, and I have so much to talk about.

First of all back in April I had hysterectomy. It was very hard emotionally, but I realized it needed to be done. I had come to the conclusion that Andie Grace was meant to be my last baby I deliver. When I delivered Andie I delivered a grapefruit size bllod clot before Andie. The doctor thought thats why her heart rate kept dropping. he thought it was part of the placenta. NOPE! It was a blood clot. The placenta was fully intact. After Andie was born, I bled for six weeks, and it was nothing but walnut size clots. They kept saying it was stress related. Even a year after Andie passed a little better, but still the same. At this point, Duane and I had gotten divorced and I was thinking I was just getting older. So I did it. It was my first surgery ever, and it sure did hurt at first.I have a high pain tolerance, but when the wheeled me to my room it was all a blur. I just remember asking the nurse why he woke me up? I told him I didnt feel an pain when I was still asleep. LOL!!!! Then I was going to puke. I never did but I sure felt like it. Once the nurse gave me some medicine, it was back to night night. I never complained though. I just could not get over how dry my mouth and lips were. That was making me crazy. But I made it and went home two days later. Thank you to my dad for coming out to help me and the boys. Also, a thank you to all for the wonderful meals and beautiful flowers. I have wonderful family and friends. I love you all.

Here are some awesome pics my dad took of me post op. I wanted some pre op for my post, but oh well.

Thursday, May 26, 2011

Please Don't Tell Me

Don't Tell Me
Please don't tell me you know how I feel,
Unless you have lost your child too,
Please don't tell me my broken heart will heal,
Because that is just not true,
Please don't tell me my daughters in a better place,
Though it is true, I want her here with me,
Don't tell me someday I'll hear her voice, see her face,
Beyond today I cannot see,
Don't tell me it is time to move on,
Because I cannot,
Don't tell me to face the fact she is gone,
Because denial is something I can't stop,
Don't tell me to be thankful for the time I had,
Because I wanted more,
Don't tell me when I am my old self you will be glad,
I'll never be as I was before,
What you can tell me is you will be here for me,
That you will listen when I talk of my child,
You can share with me my precious memories,
You can even cry with me for a while,
And please don't hesitate to say Andie's name,
Because it is something I long to hear everyday,
Friends and family please realize that I can never be the same,
But if you stand by me, you may like the new person I become someday.

In Memory of Andie Grace

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

We can't wait to hold you again!

".....Heaven's kindness will never depart from you, regardless of what happens......Bad days come to an end, faith always triumphs, and heavenly promises are always kept."

--Jeffrey R. Holland--